at 8 months

at 8 months i thought i'd be more rested than what i am. just to clarify - that 8 months is jordan's age. she's a bundle of energy and we (james and i) are at a loss for how to tame the energizer bunny. she's made incredible progress in terms of milestones - she's barreled down that road and soon, she'll be walking. with that has come sleepless nights. ok, not completely sleepless but interrupted sleep. much like when she was a newborn. we don't know what to attribute it to and i'm slowly learning that there's no point in trying to attribute it to something. these little ones require much care be it night or day and the more i read the more i realize that almost everywhere else in the world, people don't worry about holding their babies too much or even expect their children to sleep through the night when they are less than a year old. what i have learned is that different conversations can make you feel like less of a mom because your baby isn't as good a sleeper or as good an eater as the next mom. BUT also know this, moms tend to forget. it's not intentional.. but they forget what it was like to be a mother of a newborn. and this makes sense. who wouldnt want to forget being sleep deprived and semi-zombie-like in action? and this is another reason for this blog. i don't want to forget. not so that i can hang it over my daughter's head when she's 13 and giving me a headache :) but for the sake of conversations with new moms. been there. it's painful. it's hard. and there's often no permanent solution, no magic pill. (i'm still in the middle of trying to accept this fact b/c i really do worry sometimes that she'll still need a pacifier when she's 4) and in the middle of it, i will say this - love them. love them with all your heart. i hear they grow up really fast.